在你不在的日子，我要好好地充实自己，才能让自己成为更可能带给你幸福的人。

虽然这一切最后只是痴心妄想。

我哭是因为对你所经历的感到心痛，我哭是因为对自己的无能为力感到难过，我哭是因为害怕自己不能够胜任老天爷所给我的历练，我哭是因为害怕自己会不会做出和别人一样的方式伤害到别人和你。

我哭是因为正在自私地想你。

不明白，为何两个人那么在乎对方，却因为“没办法在一起”的借口而分开。

感觉自己好像是个穿着西装的狼，

而心里也有个披着狼皮的绅士。

That nagging feeling when physiological arousal cannot be properly attributed to any proper emotion.

"你就这样
飘进我的生命里"

那张死明信片差一点就把我弄哭了。

有时候，我会问自己为什么每年都回黄城。

今年的，意外中给我带来了许多欢笑。或许是因为看戏前的心情糟透了。

无论如何，现在的心情好多了。好太多了。


"青苹果不好吃，等熟了才好吃。"

明知前方是死谷还冲上去，

是希望置之死地而后生？

Rode a roller coaster last Sunday. So many things happened one after another.

Screwed up grading (but still can pass).

Found something intimately common with a smile.

Rushed report under the distraction of endlessly irritating Taiwanese soap opera.

Received an interesting hope (or perhaps a hidden disaster) out of nowhere that lasted throughout the unearthly hours.

Then again, the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment. My rationality (however bounded) will keep my sensitivities and emotions in check, especially for the upcoming examinations.

有就有，没有就没有吧。*facepalm*

如果不知道要说些什么的话，就什么也不要说吧。

I will feel for the Independent Variables if they were sentient enough because being like one for 5 hours in the row was indeed a tiring job. But at least it wasn't boring since I get to talk to many many people, 25 to be exact. I do not mind doing it again, for the money =D

最近迷上了料理漫画，把以前对烹饪的"热诚" 找了回来。

"厨师的使命就是把幸福带给大家。"

想到以前对此信念有着一些些的期许，想到以前曾考虑初院毕业后踏入学徒之旅，不禁白痴地对自己笑了一笑。自己所谓的"理想" 其实是多么的弱不禁风，只不过是一套卡通、一桌漫画所堆积出来的虚幻。

不过，我倒想真的以我自己的方式把幸福带给我身旁的人，还有那尚未出现的...

或许早已经出现了...？

还是别胡思乱想了，等从日本回来再说吧。是时候开始重新多在厨房里混一混吧。